I am not a Liar.

 hello drawnveil fans,

i am finally writing my first blog post and it is not about dexter like i said it would be, which makes the title of this post a lie. i realize this significantly discredits my reliability as a narrator, which is concerning because its happening a bit earlier on in the life of this blog than i would've liked it to, but i hope you will all stick with me despite this. i just got home from hanging out with a good friend of mine with whom i've only had wonderful conversations, and the one we just had was particularly wonderful because we hadn't sat down and talked like this in two months. we've both made many significant life changes recently, the most significant for both of us respectively being him going back to school and me moving away from our hometown. we talked a lot about what was going on in our lives, he told me about how great it felt to be in school of his own accord and do well, and i told him how the parties my friends throw are like totally awesome and he should totally visit one of these days. the scope of our conversation became narrower and eventually we began talking about how we delegate our limited daily supply of willpower to take on the ever-growing pile of tasks we must complete, and how hard it is to not spend the majority of it staving off vices. i say vices but i really mean staving my hand off of the pocket with my phone in it. we lamented both the massive amounts of time we let our phones steal from us every single day, without fail, and how stupid it sounded out loud to say "my most harmful vice is doomscrolling!" even if it is true (yep it's about phones). i got to sing the praises of my wonderful artsy friends who are always honing a craft and talk about how romantic the idea of having your own craft that youve honed to perfection for years is, not that either of us had a specific idea of the crafts we wanted to perfect, we were really just talking baby steps. the point is that, at least for me, if i want have the romantic and satiating life i dream of every sleeping and waking moment of the vapid life i live now, i need to start by putting my phone down and reading a few books, or drawing, or painting, or journaling, or woodworking, or playing music, or anything as long as its not on my phone. i also convinced my friend to maybe start a blog, and i felt like a fraud doing that without a single post to my name so i thought id say something. 

best, drawnveil

POSTSCRIPT !!!!!!!!! dexter post soon/eventually :P